Lullaby - a song unsung
Its spring again but I can only wonder what my last spring was like.
My
disease have grown so strong that I don't know where I am heading.. I
can now remember only those things which leaves a trail. I am still that
girl who has grown so strong against happiness.
Life is still giving me twists and turns..
Its like expecting the unexpected..
When
you take a step, your life is ready to give surprises .and you keep on
guessing what twist it is going to bring in. This guessing game has gone
too far that I don't find any interest in this game anymore.. why don't
my life give me some exciting puzzles. the one which can make my heart
thump up with joy..
Now that i know what my life is
intending to do with me .. I am enjoying it to the fullest... In between
I have started to enjoy all the small things, stealing away from the
dark shadows of my life ..
I feel happy when i can predict whats the next twist that my life is planning to give me ..
One thing I learned is take what ever you can from this life ..
Live the way you want it to be..
Express your views & thoughts, may be others will be able to understand you.
Even though it may not be appropriate, its ok to confess.
May
be life has a way of giving back everything it has taken from you.
Even the saddest and the happiest memories will be recreated.. I have
noticed one more thing about my life and that is my inability to
remember those incidents which could have been bad for me .. Never once
my life took away my memories of happiness .. It gives me a big relief
that my life is so considerate of me ..
It never fails to astonish me !!
Always
putting things that are needed and valuable in life and removing those
junks that could pollute my thoughts. Even though I cry remembering the
path that life makes me walk .. I can assure myself it was much needed
as I was able to see only the goodness around me ..
Even
when I curse my life of becoming allergic to happiness it encouraged me
to see the world through a different light.. Happiness is not something
that can be captured.. The more you try to run behind it , it eludes.
I
am happy that I can enjoy each and every moments in life with out
thinking whats going to happen next; even though the feeling of
badness still lingers but i have confidence that once i sleep and wake
up I will forget it ..
Each night I wait for the life to sing its lullaby ..
I am enjoying the song ..
"Sleep and I forget everything .."
